Saturday, November 22, 2008

~~~*~IT'S BEEN A WHILE~*~~~

I've been under the weather a while now, ever since my doc put me on a beta blocker to go along with my high blood pressure pill and it was a DOOOOOOZZZYYY! The beta blocker changed the chemistry of my brain and led me into the darkness of depression! UG! I still have some left I think, but not as bad as it had been as I quit taking this certain beta blocker on Halloween! Boo! That's where I have been, a place where everyone finds theirselves once and a while! I hope and pray I can get out from under it's dark clouds soon! When I was going through this, I did normal things like the laundry, cook dinners, it seemed to get better after I climbed out of bed. Climbing out of bed was such a struggle though and still seems to be. I am better and I am sorry I didn't feel like emailing or blogging and I won't be as much for a while. I wanted to rear my head though and let you know I was thinking about all of YOU!!! praying for all of YOU!!! The most uplifting moments of my dark days was when I opened the door and went in the comfort of the outdoors!!!The fresh air would seem to evelope me in comfort!
as soon as I open the door
I know soon
will be a delight
I can breathe better
and a little sparrow
has come to see me
do sparrows build nests
at wintertime?!
He or she seems to be looking
looking, searching for something
on my porch
Thank YOU little sparrow
for coming to see me
I wish YOU could tell me
what you are looking for
YOU know how much
I want to FLY
Hope to see YOU
again soon
Thank YOU little sparrow
for coming to see me
cro (why did you poop on my flip flop???!!)LOL
I'm going on another beta blocker soon and the main side effect is a dry hacky cough which the dr. knows I will not tolerate that either! It says it could cause dizzyness, nausea and fainting too! I feel sooooooOOOOOOOOoo sorry for all the people who are sicker than me!! When YOU have your health, YOU have EVERYTHING!!! I need to lose weight for my overall getting better, more exercise and walks outside!!! Maybe I will seeeeeeeeeeeeeeee YOU!!! HOPE YOU all are well!!! LOVE and Prayers, Cinda ps.Sweet Dreams!!! oxoxoxoxoxoox


Blogger Wanda said...

I just has you on my mind today, and decided to check your blog again, and lo and behold you were there!!!

So so so sorry that medicine is treating you so badly. My husband has medicines that I think the sid effects are worse than the problem.

Depression is ugly, and I'm glad you are coming back out of it. Our bodies are so sensative to so many kinds of meds....

Since I lost my weight, I've been able to get off two of my meds... YEAH!

I loved your little poem, and poop happens.... (((smile)))

Love and Hugs
I'll be back to check on you sweetie...

5:22 PM  
Blogger Annie said...

Cinda, I'm so happy to see you dropping back in, even if just for a little while.

Yes, depression can be so crippling. A person just cannot understand how it feels unless they've been there.

I've determined that weightloss has got to be one of the hardest things to accomplish; right up there with stopping smoking (watched my husband go through THAT and successfully thank goodness)

Your usual good humor seems to have not been effected. Hang in there sweetie, we will all be cheering for you.


8:03 PM  
Blogger Vedrana M. said...

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i hope you'll be feeling only better, i have award for you so check my blog, xoxo

11:48 AM  
Blogger LadyTulip said...

>>> OHHH Honey!! <<<<<

Am so so sorry that your meds have had such a horrendous effect on you. Our family has histories with depression, so Believe me!! -- I know what it's like to try an' help someone with it.

You will get out of this so so much stronger, I jus' know you will!! Love to you!! And you are in prayers, too!


1:49 PM  
Blogger Mary Timme said...

Ah-ha! I've been on the Beta Blocker you are going on and it wasn't good for me. I stopped taking it when I was coughing most of the day and night, and just told the doc it was a no go. Sigh! You'd think I'd just lose fat, but I haven't! Sigh! I'm so glad to hear why we haven't been hearing from you much until lately and I'm so glad you are moving out of depression and getting better.
Happy Thanksgiving.

1:09 PM  
Blogger turquoise cro said...

Thank YOU SWEET friends! I'll be back soon, I'm thinking of YOU all!xoxooxoxoxoxox

2:44 PM  

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